Made of Jasmine

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

fuck u because i'm feeling emo.

sigh i feel like i'm ten years older than my actual age, that is, 17. i feel so old, i feel like i am too stressed up with every aspects of life. I feel like people around me has become sadly, superficial. really superficial. i feel upset that i always tell people to follow their hearts, but i'm not doing what i believe in. I get lovesick easily. Even if you're there with me, I just can't be satisfied. I get paranoid, i get sensitive, and i'll start making a big deal out of everything. Why is it that some things just can't be explain with words? I hate bottling up my strongest emotions toward some matters.. but i have been doing it for years. I can't explain.. and when i can't express it to people around me, I express it to God. I can feel His guidance, but i don't get my answers. life is such a bitch. it's so hard to explain. why are human beings so mother fucking complex?

i know i can't take up a psychology course, because what i will be learning will definitely trigger some problems. back fire, and i go insane.. my brain is so small, why is it possible for it to think about everything in the universe?

i tell you, God is awesome when He creates us. but sadly, we're simple human beings. so i assume it's normal not to friggin understand everything, right?

i hate it when i feel like this. all i wanted was just to be carefree and happy.

Monday, October 26, 2009

my mom calls me shopping queen.

why isn't episode 7 of you're beautiful being uploaded? i waited 3 days already ): anyway, i like monday lessons. Although it's like 9-5, at least you know the longest day is over for the week! I can see myself totally isolating ebusiness management though. it's another bloody computer topic zzzz i have been questioning myself, should i or not transfer school/course?! I am sick of my school already, the people here, the whole environment is just not right. I can't see myself stay for three years know! zzz

whatever it is, i just too bored already i think.

Friday, October 23, 2009

EVERYONE HAS GOT TO WATCH YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

It is extremely funny, sweet, heart wrenching, it pisses you off, and the next moment makes you smile like a retard it is awesome. even though i'm only at the 6 episode, i can assure you it's worth your time. I had two days off from school this week, like slack only. Found myself in NP these two days. Today i tried to learn pool. Sengyau did not charge any fees and he was being really patient and nice, but then he got annoyed when i refuse to change my position so too bad. I don't know how, I tried to hit a ball hard but it backfired as the stick hit my finger and now there's a fuckin huge blister and it hurts like @^&#@6@$&@# Had my bit of fun anyway, so shall not complain like a pussy anymore.

ITS SCARY ITS FRIDAY ALREADY. ONE WEEK DOWN. 5 MORE WEEKS TO MID SEM TEST. WOW.

WHAT THE SHINGZ ?!!?!?!??!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

BAK2SKOOL days bore me.

Holidays are over. It's amazing how 7 weeks pass so bloody fast? New semester, new beginning, new whatever. It was really nice to see familiar faces again... but thinking about the part when you're gonna expect a period when they're gonna drop a bomb of project deadlines, I am speechless and horrified, plus a mix of excited and not excited. Grr. Recently my life at home has been turn upside down because my mom updated my cash book finally. And she probably got a shock of her life... while i went through hell for the past 3 days. It's sad on the second day of school I actually fell asleep during database system lecture. I don't know it's because of the subject, or it's because of my lecturer- Imanishi. She's japanese and she's really nice, but her voice, and her articulation of speech....GG

lucky it's the first week, i can still let down my hair and slack a little so here i am writing these nonsense...

SO I SHALL STOP COS SUPPER'S HERE. krandomthnxbai

Friday, October 16, 2009

shawty fire burning on the dance floor

DNTGFT(Do not thank god for thursday)

I caught (500) Days of Summer with Cheryl yesterday afternoon. It wasn't what i expected because i did not believe the commercial when it mentioned that it was not a love story. Nevertheless, it was interestingly realistic and awesome. I totally dig the soundtrack. So anyway, it was a short sort of reunion with Cheryl after her promos, because i had work. ikr, you can totally kill me. So anyway, work sped through the night unlike what i expected. I found myself playing with all the new Halloween stocks in the shop, I found myself upgrading my DJ Max levels, I found myself in love with reading, in love with Stephanie Meyer's classics again. I was sort of impressed with the speed i am reading through the book because i fucking finished 10 chapters a day. \m/ Or maybe her narrations totally impressed me. haha

TGIF. I hit Borders today, found myself reading through the first chapter of The Lost Symbols unknowingly. WOW First time i finished a chapter of Dan Brown's books k. I never had the patience to since I tried reading Da Vinci Code. Anyway, I have this sick particular thing about books. I don't read a book with puny font sizes, and I will close the cover of any book without my preferred font. And i totally dig hard covers more than those ... soft? haha right enough about books. i feel like a bookworm now.

And yes i know, I should be born blonde. So you can legally call me bimbo.

Anyway, I can't wait for tomorrow because guess who's back?!

P.S ikr stands for i know right

so stop asking? kthnxbai