yes, i am moving to tumblr, period.

find me if you can

i'll wait for the very day to come

hold me like this, hold me like this forever.

mixture of cute plus hot

never enough of zac efron and why is it that caucasians pull off fred perry polos so well?

i still am at the top of the world

i have the urge to switch to tumblr because i hate it how i have to save pictures and then upload it again on blogger. with tumblr i can easily re-blog. but the thing is, if i re-blog everything then it won't be original it won't be a site about me anymore. how? i hate it when i'm fickle-minded. 

zzz or should i have both? hahahahaha

hahahahhahahahahahhaha i feel like i own the world

I hear you talk,

you are such a bore

I see the way you look,

I think my eyes got sore.

hahahahahahahah

suck on that kid

^^

if i can turn back time, i want to fall so much harder in love with you. 

so whenever you think of me, you will never attempt things that you actually did to me.

you turn my bitchy mode on baby and i like it

hi guys. apparently some of you may know that something bad happened between billy and i and we were(note the were please) on the verge of breaking up due to some trust issues. well, if you just got one side of the story, i think you have deeply misunderstood because the root of the problem has been there for 2 years? And because of some fabricated lies in the past made me lost faith and trust in him. And now he sadly made the mistake again? you think i can tolerate all the lies? please, i am only human with an extraordinary fragile heart. You all might think that i am being unreasonable and making a big fuss over nothing but it's because you guys don't fucking understand the situation so don't fucking act like you do cos that pisses me off bad.

and won't you get upset when this 3rd party who knows that you're attached and know you exist still go and feed your bf pocky? don't say no because i guarantee you that no matter what, you'll feel something. something bad about it.

and i hate it how you all motherfuckers make it sound like it's my fault when you guys don't even know a thing. please do myob at times especially qiwen that douchebag. you can go to see http://www.sooperstaryilin.blogspot.com

The story goes like this:
I found out about the lies he made or maybe the white lies he made through her blog. everything i didn't know or was kept from was stated in the post. we had a major argument and then what happen was the next day when i went back to read again the post was gone?! (haha i also don't know why she delete..)

so i commented: deleting a post doesn't help. only makes people think you are guilty conscience(i mean seriously she delete for what when she never do anything wrong?????, right?)
okay, maybe she misread the guilty conscience part, but nvm..

this guy by the name of deadz.jasmine aka qiwen then started defaming me. hahah what a joke.
it was quite hilarious because he commented like he knew billy and i very well when he don't even know us.
he keep saying i don't trust billy i don't trust billy i don't trust billy i go and blame other people i go and blame other people..
wtf? the thing was after so many lies from someone will you trust him again? same mistakes. once bitten twice shy they say.
if you don't understand don't fucking comment because i hate douchebags like you who act like you know everything.

so this guy, he called me childish whatever but i think he seriously should grow up .
he left me with his hp no, i don't know whether it's for real or bogus and he say we should meet up and talk. super ahbeng/ahlian lor. ewwww

and the ultimate thing was the problem doesn't concern him kpo ttm.

i hope he/she reads this and get fuck upside down. awesomee . anyway fyi, billy and i are settling our problems now so i appreciate your help but too much help doesn't help get it?



hahahahhahahha i told you i'll bite when i'm bitchy.

incomplete

frankly speaking, i thought that it would have been easier to move on. but i over-estimated myself. it's only when night falls, you only get hit by the pain of knowing you have no one to depend on anymore.. i secretly miss you really bad. you were like a pillar of my life, and one day it collapsed. what am i suppose to do without you? i might look strong on the outside, but i'm bleeding on the inside. looks decieve, i played cool because i had to help you move on. baby you have to learn to move on. because i don't deserve your love.. i love you still, yesterday, today and forever will. and i hope you never will read this.
what hurts the most.. is being so close

credits to eletheowl.tumblr

"Life is already complicated as it is. You don’t need people to weigh you down, people to disappoint you."

"Some times we take for granted the people in our lives that mean so much and when we finally realize that, it can be too late. Take advantage of every minute you have, hold onto and cherish every second. Have no regrets and never forget those that made you who you are."

The important thing is to not be bitter about life’s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past. and recognize that every day wont be sunny. And when you find yourself in the darkness of despair remember, it’s only in the black of night, that you can see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you’ll get everything you wished for. Maybe you’ll get more than you could’ve imagined. who knows where life will take you, the road is long. And in the end, the journey is the destination.

I want you to remember the feel of my hair and remember the scent of my perfume I always wear. Remember my laugh and how sweet our kisses used to be. Remember the way that you used to love me.

without trust, everything else falls apart.

Gone are the days...

the decision might have been too rash, but all these 'white' lies you fabricated have triggered it. My heart's cold and numb, i will stand strong on my decision. i am fcked up bad. i thought things will be easy to handle i over estimated myself. in the day it was still fine, the pain didn't hit me as it is now.. when darkness falls and you feel the blues.. i am miserable much. how do you mend a broken heart?

i thought we were good enough, i thought we could trust each other fully, but sadly you prove me wrong. once bitten, twice shy baby. didn't i tell you before?

nothing's gonna change. it's real for now. i'm gone for good.

after all i stayed up to console you right? when it was my turn to pour out my emotions you just left? haha you are so inconsiderate.

kbox is awesome with june heng

i wasted my sunday by going for a kbox session. it was hell expensive for 4 hours, from a $16++ to a finalised $25 on the bill. PER PERSON. wow. sang many songs but was pretty disappointed when there weren't any korean pop songs. they don't even have suju! wth! i was so zz. don't even have nobody-wondergirls?!?! omg so we sang english and mandarin songs.. and because of overdose of nuts and chips plus excessive screaming into the mic, my vocals is semi-gone. ^^ hopefully 8 litres of water can salvage my throat! right, this weekend is boring pass like super fast i keep thinking today is saturday zzz. can't wait for school. can't wait to see more familiar faces ^^

k bye i am currently undergoing severe pms that explains everything. i am fucked up now. don't come near me, i will bite.

when all things simply go your way

after a long, tiring day in school, you are on your way home. you caught your final bus home without having to wait long. and the bus miraculously was empty so you had no problems with squeezing with other commuters. you found the perfect seat and you sat down, tuning in to your ipod. and when you lifted your head, you see this pair of gorgeous eyes looking at you. your prince charming appear in your bus. like a dream. but it was a dream came true. he sat right in front of you, with his thick, layered jet black hair facing you. you stare at him helplessly, he was too good to be true. as he lie against the glass panel and slowly fell asleep, you smiled as you watched from the back. the scene gave you a mysterious mutual feeling and then you lean your head against the glass panel too, directly in line with his. surprisingly, this bus ride was by far the fastest ride home and you didn't want this ride to stop. you had to bid goodbye to this dream to this guy. you stood up, and he continued sleeping. you steal a glance across when you stood up. to your joy, he caught your eye and smiled. your heart just melt and you felt insanely warm inside. you get off the bus and sat on the bench, unable to shake this weird feeling out of yourself. wow. you didn't know something so simple like a smile from him could trigger your sanity. you were caught off-guard and now all you think about is him. you find yourself heads over heels into him. and started wishing that everyday, you will catch him on the same bus and you hoped that one day, you two will be friends.... then you went home, with him still intact in your mind, and then you lay down on your bed as you went to bed. you thought of how his head shook when the bus was moving, how he gestured when he sleep and finally how he smiled at you. at you alone only. and as you close your eyes, a gentle smile surfaced as you fell deep into sleep....


did something like that happen to you before? i experienced something like this today. and i enjoyed it.

tired of waiting

" the problem was you didn't realise it was a problem and it surfaced long ago. isn't it a little too late to pursue it only now? i never believed in the theory cherish before you lose, but now i fully understand. No point putting in effort anymore. This gap, it's too big. " - Anonymous

Thank god it's friday. This week flew like a from Singapore to Malaysia. Incredibly fast know. School was fine I liked school today because i enjoyed my classes and my break not like other days when both were boring. I saw many faces that i like to see in school. ^^ awesome or not. grocery shopped with mommy and daddy after school. do you know how irritated i get when every time i place something that i want in the trolley, and then i go off to get somemore, but only to come back and realise half of the things i picked are gone?! grrr parents ah.. bth. enjoyed my durian pan cakes and left for home to watch episode 10.

and i am so going to rant about how annoyed i was when episode 10 ended at the climax?! I am dying inside to find out what's gonna happen and they didn't provide a preview for ep 11!!! but finally shinwoo(my baby) took initiative and protect gmn before tk did! ^^ but i felt sorry for tk. you see the irony? sigh. and yhy is a fuckin fake fairy i think i will really slap her if i see her on streets she was being so mean know. ugh. i shall stop it with this drama crazy thing.com. i doubt anyone else besides those who are watching the show will understand me so shall shut up nao.

lol i can't wait for next thursday to come.

and i go crazy when episode 10 is only coming out tomorrow night

oh hi there, i just finished watching episode 9 of you're beautiful(awesome kdrama, you should catch it) and i am so gonna punch Sooheyi in her face. In the first place she's not even pretty?!?, why is she the national treasure as claimed in the show!!! And she's fuckin fake and i hate her to the max. She should mhob right!!! She's just jealous TK, SW & Jeremy likes GMN but that girl deserve it right!! You see, this is how uptight i get over a show. And i hate it i can't continue watching. If only my hands weren't itchy and wait for all episodes to be uploaded first... zzzz AND why can't she give shinwoo a chance? He's so sweet so nice so caring so charming so cool so ugh. so perfect. And he's always caught in the situation of so near yet so far. My heart goes out to him only.. sigh..

Fine, i shall stop it with my obsession over YB.
So anyway, today i had lunch with almost all my classmates at the new Popeye's in Century Square and rushed off to town to only know that i was quite early.. I reached town went to my favorite shop(etude house) again and bought another nail polish!!! I love it! Shopped a bit found my bag heavy like it weighs a tonne, gave up and waited for my babies to reach at the train station. We went casual shopping around Ion and finally settled Fish & Co for dinner. The staffs there were really nice, and loud as well, they celebrated jamie goh birthday as well. So sweet right?! I bet Jamie enjoys today. She better does, lol just kidding but oh well, we had fun right? ^^

no offence, but at least she's happier with us, than with you.
hahahaha took probably a thousand photos shall upload on FB soon.
hehehehehehehe

tomorrow i am gonna camp with my comp and refresh http://www.mysoju.com/youre-beautiful/ every one minute till i see episode 10-newly added. \m/

where are you now

is it me or is it everyone that's feeling the weather burn through your skin? I'm going insane of having to run after buses under the motherfuggin hot sun every day. And now i'm suffering from a major headache, hopefully it subsides in a while after a tablet of panadol. I don't know why ever since my mom offered to send me to the bus stop, I have been leaving house pretty late. Sigh, shall stop being a spoilt brat and leave house 1/2 hour earlier tomorrow! School's been a big bitch. I have to say i'm doing fine ONLY in MicroEcons. I am losing out in BA, SAS, EBiz and the best one DATABASE. I can't blame the lecturer, i just have to blame myself for not putting in the effort in reading on my own. So what your lecturer's boring right... Zzz. Today i went to collect my pay since i had free time. A little lesser than expected, oh wells, what can i do? Say bye bye to my navel piercing for now. Use it for better purposes like updating my closet right? Haha i wish. I have to pay off my heavy debts. To my mom, and my baby boy. Ugh. Hate it how i'm broke. I got my card confiscated anyway. I so deserve it. My mom is going crazy with the rate of me withdrawing at least 100 bucks from my bank every week, so she had to resort to this. And i'm not complaining because i totally understand that she was for once being reasonable. So anyway, met up with Barbara for some speed shopping in town. Entered Etude House for the first time and totally fell in love with the range of nail polishes they have(It's the same with other shops around i know, but HELLO? Does other shops have leeminho,jangganseuk etc to promote their stuffs?) I finally settled on a nude shade and totally dig it. like boomz only

Had favourite chicken rice in FEP and then left for home. Tired much? Afterall it's been a day of 5 hours of lab in school plus speed shopping right? Attacked by some ridiculous headache monsters and my head's spinning right round..

I think i'll sleep early tonight. why not take the chance when the weather for once is good? It's raining for god's sake.

can't let this feeling end.

Hello November. Wow 2009 just bloody flew. In 2 months time, it's 2010. And then i'm gonna die two years later, when I'm 20. ( I believe in the Mayan Calender whether you like it or not ) So today was the first day of the week and it started pretty bad. I left house at 8.55, with intention to catch the 9:05 bus, but I missed it. And the next bus came at 9.24 according to my itouch. Wow. I forgot about my shoes for presentation, and also my piano books for lessons straight after school. Thank god my 2 babies came down to crash my school. Having lectures with them again totally reminds me of higher chinese lectures we had together in school i miss xms, forever. ): So anyway, it was awesome to see them in my school.. they kept on saying it was cool and cool and cool(my school) while i thought it was fucking boring for a polytechnic.. So anyway, two hours spend together only but i was still happy they came. ^^

One interview down and it went smoothly in my opinion. I totally want to score k? I can't afford to get 3 and below for my GPA anymore in my entire life of tertiary education. I swear. I am gonna pawn your ass.

I miss my NP friends so bad ): It was from meeting at least once everyweek to none. ): Ugh and I secretly miss touch rugby too. sigh. My Life is Worse than Average thankyouverymuch.

Wow this is one of the first post without a word FUCK. I'm fuckin impressed.

school's in and life's hectic

hello kidz. how's your week? Mine has been incredibly hectic. But i like school. I like how i'm enriched with new knowledge every single day. But damn it i have several projects on hand already. It's okay a few weeks time and i'll be having holidays again! So, we celebrated Afiqah's birthday in school. It was her 18th and it was a surprise that worked. Hopefully she did enjoy it. And then there was a casual saturday out with Cheryl. I feel like i'm meeting her every saturday wow but i super love her company! You know the piled up nonsense you get from school you can just let it out to her and then she'll make you feel fine again. A pity we weren't prepared enough for a halloween party. if not the night would have been perfect. okay i seriously am in no mood for blogging pardon me kthnxbai