yes, i am moving to tumblr, period.

find me if you can

i'll wait for the very day to come

hold me like this, hold me like this forever.

mixture of cute plus hot

never enough of zac efron and why is it that caucasians pull off fred perry polos so well?

i still am at the top of the world

i have the urge to switch to tumblr because i hate it how i have to save pictures and then upload it again on blogger. with tumblr i can easily re-blog. but the thing is, if i re-blog everything then it won't be original it won't be a site about me anymore. how? i hate it when i'm fickle-minded. 

zzz or should i have both? hahahahaha

hahahahhahahahahahhaha i feel like i own the world

I hear you talk,

you are such a bore

I see the way you look,

I think my eyes got sore.

hahahahahahahah

suck on that kid

^^

if i can turn back time, i want to fall so much harder in love with you. 

so whenever you think of me, you will never attempt things that you actually did to me.

you turn my bitchy mode on baby and i like it

hi guys. apparently some of you may know that something bad happened between billy and i and we were(note the were please) on the verge of breaking up due to some trust issues. well, if you just got one side of the story, i think you have deeply misunderstood because the root of the problem has been there for 2 years? And because of some fabricated lies in the past made me lost faith and trust in him. And now he sadly made the mistake again? you think i can tolerate all the lies? please, i am only human with an extraordinary fragile heart. You all might think that i am being unreasonable and making a big fuss over nothing but it's because you guys don't fucking understand the situation so don't fucking act like you do cos that pisses me off bad.

and won't you get upset when this 3rd party who knows that you're attached and know you exist still go and feed your bf pocky? don't say no because i guarantee you that no matter what, you'll feel something. something bad about it.

and i hate it how you all motherfuckers make it sound like it's my fault when you guys don't even know a thing. please do myob at times especially qiwen that douchebag. you can go to see http://www.sooperstaryilin.blogspot.com

The story goes like this:
I found out about the lies he made or maybe the white lies he made through her blog. everything i didn't know or was kept from was stated in the post. we had a major argument and then what happen was the next day when i went back to read again the post was gone?! (haha i also don't know why she delete..)

so i commented: deleting a post doesn't help. only makes people think you are guilty conscience(i mean seriously she delete for what when she never do anything wrong?????, right?)
okay, maybe she misread the guilty conscience part, but nvm..

this guy by the name of deadz.jasmine aka qiwen then started defaming me. hahah what a joke.
it was quite hilarious because he commented like he knew billy and i very well when he don't even know us.
he keep saying i don't trust billy i don't trust billy i don't trust billy i go and blame other people i go and blame other people..
wtf? the thing was after so many lies from someone will you trust him again? same mistakes. once bitten twice shy they say.
if you don't understand don't fucking comment because i hate douchebags like you who act like you know everything.

so this guy, he called me childish whatever but i think he seriously should grow up .
he left me with his hp no, i don't know whether it's for real or bogus and he say we should meet up and talk. super ahbeng/ahlian lor. ewwww

and the ultimate thing was the problem doesn't concern him kpo ttm.

i hope he/she reads this and get fuck upside down. awesomee . anyway fyi, billy and i are settling our problems now so i appreciate your help but too much help doesn't help get it?



hahahahhahahha i told you i'll bite when i'm bitchy.

incomplete

frankly speaking, i thought that it would have been easier to move on. but i over-estimated myself. it's only when night falls, you only get hit by the pain of knowing you have no one to depend on anymore.. i secretly miss you really bad. you were like a pillar of my life, and one day it collapsed. what am i suppose to do without you? i might look strong on the outside, but i'm bleeding on the inside. looks decieve, i played cool because i had to help you move on. baby you have to learn to move on. because i don't deserve your love.. i love you still, yesterday, today and forever will. and i hope you never will read this.
what hurts the most.. is being so close

credits to eletheowl.tumblr

"Life is already complicated as it is. You don’t need people to weigh you down, people to disappoint you."

"Some times we take for granted the people in our lives that mean so much and when we finally realize that, it can be too late. Take advantage of every minute you have, hold onto and cherish every second. Have no regrets and never forget those that made you who you are."

The important thing is to not be bitter about life’s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past. and recognize that every day wont be sunny. And when you find yourself in the darkness of despair remember, it’s only in the black of night, that you can see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you’ll get everything you wished for. Maybe you’ll get more than you could’ve imagined. who knows where life will take you, the road is long. And in the end, the journey is the destination.

I want you to remember the feel of my hair and remember the scent of my perfume I always wear. Remember my laugh and how sweet our kisses used to be. Remember the way that you used to love me.

without trust, everything else falls apart.

Gone are the days...

the decision might have been too rash, but all these 'white' lies you fabricated have triggered it. My heart's cold and numb, i will stand strong on my decision. i am fcked up bad. i thought things will be easy to handle i over estimated myself. in the day it was still fine, the pain didn't hit me as it is now.. when darkness falls and you feel the blues.. i am miserable much. how do you mend a broken heart?

i thought we were good enough, i thought we could trust each other fully, but sadly you prove me wrong. once bitten, twice shy baby. didn't i tell you before?

nothing's gonna change. it's real for now. i'm gone for good.